I have been foolish for not facing the problems I should and believed that I won't have to face it until I finish my University school life.
I am torn between doing law or not. Yes, what a luxury to complain about when you are in one of the best law schools in the world. But I do feel that I am using up the language I should have been putting into my languages when I am trying hard, very hard to be above average in law. I am not asking for anything more any more. I am accepting that I have to work very hard for a long time to do well in law. It is not my genre, I believe.
I spoke to my lecturer today and he was encouraging me to go straight into languages and believe that I have a talent in it. I have never wrote the best writing in class in Chinese. That led me to think that I am not that good at languages. May be it was simply because I hadn't put enough effort in it.
I am beginning to believe that there is a chance for me to achieve high in languages. May be even chance to get scholarships for exchange or a career in it.
But how can I tell that I am not just merely trying to escape the harshness of the law school. I did not fail in anything yet. Passing = having the ability to continue, isn't it? It is something I am capable of doing, buy saying what I said aren't I just trying to find excuses to go for the easy way?
What is the right thing to do?