我很愛我自己的。我這樣告訴自己。可是，到底到了何年何月我才能學會愛自己的身體呢？說愛自己的我到底是不是其實除了身體之外，連自己的靈魂也不會愛？
昨天我把腳扭傷了。晚上，一直沒好的咳嗽（快兩個月了吧）狂暴地向我襲來…… 咳咳咳咳…… 結果一晚上沒有睡好，直至早上三點多才睡着。
今天一整天腦袋混混沌沌的，不能運轉，在本來擅長的物理課上聼不懂老師所說的内容。已經四年沒正式讀過的電學，基本概念都沒了，雖然我在中四的時候因爲提早離校錯過電學科了，但是既然不能改變，就只能往前看，努力把失去的追回來吧。
想做的事情多在做了，可是能做不等於就能順利吧。
再沒有人刺激我去創作，我到達了瓶頸，向表達的感念有很多，多得我不能整合，不會把它們呈現出來……
我該怎麽辦？
The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.(Oct. 1986)
To learn to think like what the quote said must be a painful process.
However, I believe out of the pain, it is a happy life in return.
"Anyone who has not rowed in a really close boatrace cannot comprehend the level of pain." -- Dan Topolski from TRUE BLUE, The Oxford Boat Race Mutiny
And my rowing crew sure can after today’s race. We have won by only an inch or two. At the end they must have pulled it out of nothing. It is determination which bought us to victory and make us show sportsmanship. I reckon, sportsmanship is mainly about the determination of one to win in a competition and taking up all the responsibilities needed, not blaming anything.
